Thursday, October 9, 2008

Attempting to climb out...

I've been MIA for a little bit...with lots going on and very little getting accomplished.

I'll start off with the sick roll call:

Hubby: Flu
Jack: Cold
Emmy: the trifecta - pink eye, ear infection, and strep throat
Cameron: Stomach Flu

Everyone is starting to feel better, but trying to juggle work schedules with sick kids has been challenging to say the least.

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I've been trying to work out a conundrum...when I first started my blog, I received some great advice to write the blog for me. I haven't been doing that...I think we're all into the acceptance thing and I don't know about you, but I love receiving the comments...so I think a lot of times I write to entertain (if I actually accomplish that, I really don't know). I've started feeling a little down on myself because I know one of my talents in life isn't writing. I'm not like other bloggers out there that always wanted to write; I've always struggled with writing and still end up producing mediocre things. So my negative thinking has been getting me down about the fact that I am not funny, not entertaining, etc., etc. I've been visiting other blogs that have embraced the concept of blogging for themselves...which then produces more negative thinking. I AM very talented at this!!

So I've taken a little break and I have found that I really have missed this outlet. As time has passed, I started thinking that my connections to people have been one-sided, but just yesterday, I received 3 different e-mails from people making sure I was okay...so I received validation these connections are not all in my head...I call you guys my "imaginary friends" to my friends that do not blog because it's difficult to explain the friendships that I've made online. But that's not an accurate description of the support system that I've found...

So after all my unorganized ramblings, I'm back...and just so you know what you see is what you get....And thanks to my bloggy friends for visiting me and being that very important support system!

BTW: Dear Aunt Flo began today which is probably the reason for the influx of negative thinking...you know how those out-of-town guests can stress you out!!

19 comments:

Kori said...

Well I think you are doing a fine job. And you will have something else coming from out of town soon too but... it won't be nearly as rough as Aunt Flo. I promise. Thought it would have been there today. But tomorrow I guess.

This Mom said...

I am glad to see that you are okay. I can relate to things gettign out of control. I am going to be way busy this weekend but will be looking for my outlet when I get back on monday.

Again glad the house is getting over the yuckies.

Therese said...

I look forward to reading your blog! Glad you are back!

Jen B. said...

I'm so glad you're back! I hope everyone gets to feeling better soon, also! We've had the stomach flu in our house & it's no fun juggling sick ones & work!

Kat said...

Oh, Kelly, we really and truly were seperated at birth. I am right there with you in that I don't have the soul of a writer. I don't write a blog to work on my craft. I write a blog to make connections. Those connections and validations mean the world to me - as a homeschooling mom who is NEVER alone.

Every time I push the publish button I have negative thoughts. :-) I am so glad you are back - I was about to start pestering you - but I procrastinate!

Jenny said...

I think you write really well.
I love reading your blog.

Sorry about all your family being ill. That's a bummer.

Glad you are back!

American in Norway said...

IMAGINARY??? Good lord girl... You don't have to write to blog..(although you do a super fine job...remember you were always the SMART one....)

Seriously, screw what people "think" I posted about that a while a go after I was trying to post about baking a cake...thats not me...

But in regards to the outlet... when I go back & read my blogs from when i started in May... my outlook on alot of things have changed.... I was still so negative about having to live here in Norway... now I am running around taking pictures, sunbathing naked on rocks & telling you all how great it is...

I live in a really beautiful place, I just never bothered to notice it until I went on line...

LOVE YOU! from your UN IMAGINARY buddy...

I wasn't really naked, I wanted to see if you were paying attention

Z's Mom said...

Kelly, I'm so glad you are back!!! I liked reading your posts because you were you. I feel inadequate in my posts too....other people's are always better it seems. Or I sensor myself so I don't make anyone mad and so I continue to get comments. I wonder if we all do that....

I'm so sorry your whole family is sick.....I hope everyone feels better soon and Aunt Flo doesn't overstay her welcome.

Jen said...

you know, I was just thinking today that I had not seen around and I was wondering if you were alright. I am glad that you are back. I did miss you, your lovely stories and your comments.
Blogging is a delicate balance between entertaining and writing for yourself. I think that you have to do a little of both.
I have always been a big fan of yours and thought that you do a great job. I am glad that you decided to continue.

Shanna said...

Dude. Now I feel like a jerk for not hunting down your e-mail and bugging you to come back! I thought about you if that counts. I wondered why I hadn't seen any updates on my Following list. Well, it's true!
Ok so don't feel bad for what YOU see as a lack of talent in the writing department.
I'm pretty selective in what blogs I follow and I like yours! I know you're thinking "oh? and who are YOU, Shanna!??" LOL no one, I know...but well, what I'm saying is, write for you because that's why I follow you ;)
And if it makes you feel better MY Aunt Flo will be visiting soon here as well. *sigh*
Whew! that was a mouth full, no? :)

Hippie Family... said...

AND A PARTRIDGE IN A PEAR TREEEEEEE!!!!!

Whewww.. glad I live here, eww coodies!

Glad things are getting back on track, Tell that auntie I will see her next week..
:D

JWilson said...

I'm very glad you are back and I don't care about how you write I promise to still read you.

I am sorry to hear about all the sick ones in your house and I hope everyone gets better soon.

Sara said...

I understand! I think it's the time of year or something! Sorry to hear everybody's sick, that makes it worse!! Hope they all get better!

Kelly said...

You guys are so fabulous, awesome, and know exactly what to say to make my day!

Thank you, thank you for being there for me!!

Tree: I did pick up on the naked sunbathing comment. My first thought was that, "I thought it was getting colder there..." Not that I didn't think you would do it...I know you!

CaraBee said...

I think you are a great writer! Don't worry about writing for us, just write for you, we'll still love ya.

Hope everyone feels better. SOON!

Shannon said...

Yay! I'm glad you are back! :)

I love reading your blog and am so glad we "met". You and I started our blogs around the same time, so I like to think I've got another "newbie" out there who is learning this blog stuff with me.

I don't think you have to be a writer (or aspire to be one) in order to blog. I think you've got to blog about things you want to, whatever they may be.

I think we all struggle with what we post... over-think and second-guess ourselves. I know I will never be a Happy Hour Sue or McMommy (and I am ok with that) but I do think they are hilarious and like to read their stuff.

Anyhoo, I am glad to see you back and just know that I will be here :)

Shannon said...

Oh, and I am so sorry to hear about all the sickness going on at your house!

Andrea said...

I hope the house is well soon!

As for the other. Have you ever even read my blog? Not a lot of deep thought going on there ;)

So just blog whatever. Blogging I find is just a place where a lot of times we get to say the things that we normally wouldn't say out loud. Just send it out there and we'll all be here waiting to read it :)

Ronda's Rants said...

Oh my please don't judge my writing! My daughter is an English major and happens to be a great writer! She gets really very frustrated with my writing but...I think of it as letter writing or a short walk down the hallway of my office to catch up myself with everyone's lives!
I hope you are all feeling better soon! Please keep blogging...I would miss you!